I had this dream that the Earth was pregnant with Peace... and she was in the throes of giving birth to her and all of humanity was her doula... and we were helping her birth her baby Peace... we were walking her around the cosmos and giving her encouraging words like...." you can do it and" you are so amazing" and "we love you" ... and she was doing it! she was giving birth to Peace!!!! and we could see Peace's head crowing and we were all laughing and crying and hugging her and each other and ourselves and I just woke up crying and laughing... just now and I swear to you... I believe with all of my heart that That is what Earth is trying to do right now!!!! and I saw all of us helping her and it was so beautiful that this is all I want to do with the rest of my life from here on out... Birth Peace.
I know I have been sounding a little wild lately... but I believe we came here to help one another heal up good and strong and transcend our own personal suffering... together... all or none.
I have been meditating on loving everything that I have found difficult to love in the past and it has really opened me up and changed how I see everything.
My own son was born 6 years ago yesterday.... so the dream had a very deep and profound meaning for me as I had also become a mother 6 years ago yesterday... around me I had my midwife, my doula instructor, my baby daddy and my two lovely chihuahuas. I gave birth at home in my water birthing pool in my tiny kitchenette on e 3rd st. NYC.
I had a wonderful network of support cheering me on and I gave birth to a very special little guy. When I saw him I said welcome welcome welcome.

when I gave birth to my son... I honestly did not think I could at one point!!! but the rooting me on and the loving me up in the process.... helped to change that fear in me... and after a little while... I was able to do it and I did it brilliantly...
well... It is my belief that our Mother... Mother earth... is in labor. and Momma is trying like mighty to give birth to our little sister Peace...
so lets all love our momma up and say hello to our new and much awaited sibling... Sister Peace.
All Together Now... men women and children, animals air and water...
To Peace,
Welcome Welcome Welcome.

Easter Acid

Easter acid

first let me sit you down and then I will sit me down and we will try very very hard not to laugh.
First at their robes and then at their solemnity. I whisper to you "When he speaks he sounds like the mwah mwah teacher from peanuts." You agree... It is uncanny.

I tell you that I love jesus and that I think we are from the same space pod...
and you will tell me you know this already and to shut up and "look...
look at the stained glass wall fall."


and I so I look
and it is more lovely, more stunning than it ever could have been in any other state...
and I have to hold your hand right then and push myself into you... A holy hot pink sun in perfect harmony with the big busy window pane... together we watch easter melt into a 2 dimensional acid bath of unbelievable gorgeousness. It was very sweet ... our life then.


On our way out... I lit every candle in the prayer station of Assisi with the three matches I had left and then stacked three bright pennies on top of three burnt sticks... while you sat on my feet and pushed your head through my knees.

I heard the hard clack of dress shoes
but you said you heard the honking of geese or a bicycle bell...
what ever we heard sent us racing towards the towering arced doors and we pushed ourselves out through the heavy wood to find ourselves washed out into a sea of dusk and darkening blue.

Our very sweet life then and how I loved you.

photo art by John Favorite out of San diego